Don’t Call It A Comeback…

I bet you all gave up on me.  Never thought you’d see me in these parts again… these parts being the blogosphere.  Well,  here I am resurfacing like yesterday’s news.  I have been very uninspired creatively lately so I’ve been allowing my juices to simmer until I felt a little more…. ummm…. “juicy” I guess.  My life lately has involved everyday work, lots of really fun freelance work, church, sleep and sickness.  Not much to get dwell on. 

Yesterday marked 2 calendar months until Baby Dallas makes his predicted arrival on September 15.  It is so exciting to think about!   Some wonderful friends of ours gave us their baby furniture to use.  We are so grateful because it saved us a huge expense.  To top it off the furniture is gorgeous!  So the decor has begun… my fave part of getting ready! 

He is kicking the heck out of me.  My little ninja.  It is so sweet to feel him creating ruckus everyday before I sleep and when I wake.

Darrell and I are going through a lot of psychological craziness as we prepare for a complete change in our life.  Some good… some really scary.  We are trying to remain very focused on the joy of this time but if I’m honest I am incredibly scared sometimes.  I read this quote the other day in a fantastic book that I’m reading, “when we don’t have the guts to step out in faith and chase lions, then God is robbed of the glory that rightfully belongs to Him.”  I love that.  All of my fears are ultimately rooted in my lack of faith.  What a lesson I can learn in letting go of those fears and chasing my lions.  I’ve seen God work over and over in my life but I seem to live in a perpetual state of spiritual amnesia sometimes.  BTW… the book is “In A Pit Wth A Lion On A Snowy Day” by Mark Batterson and it is just what I need right now.  I love when God speaks to me not only through our conversations and His Word but he places a person, a book, or a message in my life that just meets me right where I am.  That is this book right now.

C3 is in a series right now titled “Tweet This.”  This week Pastor Byron spoke to us about Shamgar.  His story can be found in Judges 3.  “Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.”  If Shamgar lived in the technological age of twitter this would probably be what he would say in 140 characters or less.  I’ve been thinking about him all week and the way he lived.  I am the type of person that is inclined to try to do something with just about nothing.  I love to use whatever resources are available to me.  I think I’m going to try to implement this in my life even more.  There are definitely some areas in my life where I tend to be a little more hesitant when I can’t quite figure things out in my feeble little mind.  I’m excited to hear more of this series. 

Anyway… that is about all.  I miss you all.  My social life has definitely been affected by my pregnancy.  I have been so exhausted by all of my adult responsibilities that I can barely function sometimes.  But it is so worth it to feel my child growing inside of me.  It doesn’t mean that I don’t miss my time with my friends though.  I’ve definitely felt sad at times at what feels like the loss of the type of closeness I’m used to in some of my friendships… but I’m learning to figure out how to continue relationships in new ways.  It’s still hard though.  I’ll be popping up on this blog every now and then.  Love ya!  xoxo

Jumbled Thoughts

It’s been a while and I’m not making any promises as to when my next blog appearance will be.  Writing for me is a process that requires thought and effort.  This is a problem because I lack a lot of motivation lately.  There is just a mental purging that I feel the need to release before I have an insurmountable amount jumbled thoughts just explode recklessly. 

This past week I was confronted with a statement that really upset me.  It came from a family member.  I have not been able to stop thinking about it.  I really don’t know what to say about this situation other than it really pissed me off.  Sometimes the best thing for me to do is just say my peace and then bite my tongue because anything extra will just lead to a verbal altercation.  That is what I did.  It also goes against every fiber of my being.  I am naturally wired to be a fighter.  I am someone who stands by my convictions and doesn’t back down so I sit here dwelling.  I don’t know what to do.  I feel like all of this person’s stuff was projected onto me in one simple sentence and I’m just confused.

On an exciting note… we’re having a boy!  Little Dallas Isaiah Loper.    Dallas was Darrell’s dad’s name.  We’ve always wanted to name our boy after him if we had one.  Darrell is adopted so Dallas will be Darrell’s first relative that is his own flesh and blood.  I’m so happy God is giving him to us.  It is so special that he can carry on his grandfather’s name and Darrell and I can look at him and see a reflection of daddy and mommy.

C3 has been amazing as usual!  We are growing like crazy!  There have been SO many new faces this last month.  Even better than the surge in attendance are the lives that have been changed as so many are deciding to put their faith in Christ.  I’m so grateful that God has me right in the middle of such a beautiful movement.

There is actually a lot more that I want to write about but I’m emotionally and physically drained.  Maybe I will have a spark of inspiration again soon.  We’ll see!

BTW… check out my friend’s new blog.  www.kimberlybowes.wordpress.com.

Break Time

If you haven’t already noticed I have tried in vain to keep my blog going over the past few weeks.  I have been in the thick of pregnancy symptoms.  I have had every single one possible.  I don’t feel very inspired to write when I feel sick all of the time.  So instead of making empty promises I have decided to take a leave of absence from blogging until I feel the overwhelming need to write again.  Hope to see you soon!

The Old Me Is Dead And Gone

ReInspired

I got home from work late tonight but I am reinspired to write.  What that basically means is check back for my writings if you’d like to!   See you soon!

Playing Catch Up

It’s been a while.  I stopped writing regularly a few weeks before I found out I was pregnant.  I just hadn’t been feeling well and didn’t know why.  Then when I found out it has consumed me.  I’m extremely excited but I don’t want to go on and on about all the stuff that is going on with me.  I don’t want to be over the top and annoying. 

C3 is incredible.  It is a rush for me to see all of the new faces and new lives being changed weekly.  I have made so many great new friends within the last year.  God has provided me with the opportunity to hear life changing stories every single week.  Some of the things I hear can only be attributed to change that only God can do.  I’m so grateful that my friends have found a home at C3. 

God has been working a lot in my life as well.  He is teaching me to trust Him more.  I really needed yesterday’s message.  With all of the life changing events taking place in our lives I have admittedly been a bit anxious.  I think too much and rely on God too little.  I need to make the decision daily to rely rather than deny God.  When doubt and anxiety come into play I must choose to trust over and over again.  My personality is such that I plan everything meticulously and if I don’t feel like I have it all figured out and under control I freak.  I’m trying to grasp in my humanity how God already has an amazing plan for me beyond my comprehension.  Don’t get me wrong…. I’m super excited about the future… but I still get scared.  I want to be the best I can be.  I’m learning that by trusting God I can be the best…. and only by trusting Him.

Well that is a little bit of what has been going on lately.  I hope to be back to blogging regularly soon…

BTW… I’m soooo excited about C3 adopting 100 more families for four weeks this spring.  That is what it is all about!

Oh… and P.S.  I did a photo shoot with BMG Models, Cat Melnyk Photography, Fused Fashion and Intermix a couple of weeks ago for their spring look book.  Check it out.

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i can’t wait until i have a train of thought again that isn’t totally distracted by exhaustion.

Baby Daddy

It’s official! I’m with child! Darrell and I are sooo excited! This is the reason I haven’t blogged in ages. I knew but didn’t want to say anything until seeing the doctor. I’ve been somewhat consumed with it. There was just nothing else worth writing about! I’m going to be a mommy!

It Will Be Worth The Time Off

My stats have sucked since I have been lacking the motivation to blog.  I promise with all of my heart that there will be a worth while post tomorrow.  I have something really good!!!  I’m just collecting my thoughts!

I would blog more but that would require thought.