“My name is Andrea and I am Seeker Sensitive”

I know what it is like to be disillusioned by Christianity.  There have been times in my life where I have been physically sick over the way Christians have treated other people or myself.  Christians can be so insensitive to the circumstances in peoples lives… so judgemental.  Even just thinking about it right now makes me intensely uncomfortable and just plain sad.  Over the course of the last couple of weeks I have been presented with two specific people in my life who have had a deep sense of searching for truth but can’t seem to get over circumstances in their pasts.  One of my friends is even a pastor’s daughter which in my eyes may make the situation even more difficult.  She has been presented with the truth of God in words her whole life but from what she has told me about living as a pastor’s child she hasn’t seen it lived out in the lives of the people in the church she grew up in very much.  She recalls so much pain, so much finger pointing, and so much pride. 

Not to long ago she asked me if I would go to lunch with her.  I had been to lunch with her before but it had usually involved more people.  This time it was intended to be just her and I.  I had no idea the things she would share with me in this time but as the days go by I still sit at that table listening to those words over and over in my head.  She wanted to talk to me about the questions she has about God.  Recently she had been studying the beliefs of a different religion.  She shared with me how she has so many questions but can’t talk to her parents about them because they would freak out and condemn her to hell if they heard she was dabbling in the beliefs of another religious philosophy.  She is seeking. 

A couple of days after my lunch with this friend another young lady I barely know asked me if I would go to lunch with her.  She wanted to talk to me about some really difficult circumstances that had been taking place in her life recently.  I was a little surprised that she spilled her guts to me because what I do know of this girl is that she is incredibly private.  I had never really had an opportunity to get to know her even when I had tried to.  The things she told me about that are taking place in her life right now honestly made me so emotional.  Her circumstances are tough… really, really tough.  She feels like she has no hope.  NONE…but she wants it so bad.   I can’t even imagine.  Even in my worst situations I know that God will never leave me.  She doesn’t have that understanding of a personal relationship with God.   Interestingly enough, she is a religious person.  Her religion being that of which my friend I told you about above is dabbling in.  Coincidence… barely.  She is seeking.

What would turn someone away from their creator while at the same time someone else is trying so desperately to connect with Him?  This may not be a fair question because I honestly feel like both of these ladies are trying to connect with Him.  I know this because my first friend still wants to have the conversation… she is still seeking.  She is just so wounded.  Unfortunately a lot of lip service is paid to God’s grace and mercy but not a lot of evidence is shown in most Christ followers lives.  I’m not one who really believes in coincidence.  I believe both of those lunches were divinely orchestrated.  I feel humbled that these ladies would confide in me.  I couldn’t answer all of their specific questions because I have never walked in their shoes but both of them know where my hope lies.  I know that I know that I know that God is working on these ladies.  He wants to be the one who fills the void in their lives.  He wants to be the source of strength and hope for both of them.  He wants to make them complete.  He just wants to be the One for them because ultimately He is the only One who can do these things in their lives.  I don’t know where I’d be without Him. 

I ask that you please pray for my friends.  I would be honored to have more lunches with them.  One day I hope to see them in church with me surrounded by my friends who will come around them, love, support and pray for them.  I know God has a plan.  He promises that those who seek Him will find Him.  He can even save those who are disillusioned, jaded, wounded, and without hope.  I’m incredibly sensitive when I think about my friends because I relate so profoundly to these ladies.  I was once a disillusioned seeker… and He found me… and I’ve never been the same.

Matthew7: ⁷“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. ⁸For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.